My Loves...

I am finding it so hard to come up with some kind of encouragement to try to do my part to add some form of silver linning to your day based on the very recent events.

My heart is indeed heavy as I am sure many of yours is.

Whether it be by direct association, or by witnessing the events that continue to transpire before our eyes. How can you NOT Be Sad, Angry, Devastated as the parent, child, spouse, sibling, loved one or friend of someone whom you just learned will NOT be coming home due to an Act of senseless violence?  

The Truth is, No matter the Circumstance, WE ALL Suffer as a Nation!

No matter the how many barriers we all try to erect the walls WE promise to build... WE Are all ONE and tethered by the same line.. 

A LIFE Line!!!

We are not links, we are one line which for a moment due to a significant experience can be severed. We are then either fused back together by Love or Hate. 

There is no more gray area my loves.

All I can tell you is that When there is 

Enough Love.. hate has no choice but to 

whither away.......

‪#‎ALLLIVESMATTER‬
‪#‎IChooseLove‬
‪#‎hatehasNOPlace‬
‪#‎love‬
‪#‎ONElove‬

It's been such an eventful week.  Lots of downs but through the course of mourning so many lives lost at the Pulse night club, there has also been many ups!  Just when you think that society has lost it's sense of compassion, The World has not only collectively expressed, it has also witnessed 

Modest Acts of Consciousness.

As the world continues to mourn the loss of 49 innocent lives lost, the world also has come together to show those who think that they have won due to their acts of terror, just how 

UNITED the world truly is!!  

My prayer is that we continue on this journey of collective compassion.  

That we are not mobilized, nor motivated by tragedy.  

That we continue to think outside the box, to look out for one another, as that is what it will take to see our society through.

My continued prayers to the Families of the 49 lost and those who survived the unfortunate event.  May you find strength and comfort from the Love that the World has Cast Upon you during your time of grief and recovery.

May God Bless us All

I

I have taken a fairly long hiatus from Blogging for the sake of trying to reconnect with my authentic self.  I have to tell you, this is not an easy task as I have learned there are so many layers to me that I have no idea where to begin?  Have you ever been there?  So lost within yourself that any inner compass you have left just seems to keep on spinning and spinning?  If the answer is "Yes" then not only do I warmly welcome you to my world, I invite you to get comfy and stay a while!  We may just inspire each other, and truthfully that is okay with me!  

What I am painfully learning on this Journey.....

I am learning just how much the world is starving for attention and will do just about anything for it.  This is something that is very sad to me.  Because while in one hand, I can truly appreciate the practicality of a good "USEFUL" viral video, I am repulsed by the ones that are dumbing down society and are not only adulated, they are well compensated.

So the burning question now lies.... 

How do we return to the basics???

How do we return to that place in time when Humans interacted with each other without a phone, a computer or a video game in their hands???  Call me old fashioned, call me traditional,, All I can say is that I MISS Humans!!!

My goal is to enlighten, not to frustrate, nor command you into radical change for all I am doing is thinking out loud and inviting you to Lovingly partake in my thoughts without ridicule or judgement 
in hopes of a cure.  

A societal cure would be nice, but I am happy with.... 

A 

Modest 

Conscious 

Movement 

Self Disclosure of a LOVE (in MIND)

First I must Thank God for allowing me to connect with this new outlet of mine.  I will not deny that at first, my intention was to blog so that I could generate some additional income to keep a roof over my head, but the more I write, the more I am discovering myself, and becoming FREE!

Enough said, lets carry on shall we?  This morning I had awakened to a movie playing on HBO called ‘Brown Sugar’ with Tae Diggs, Sanaa Lathan, and Queen Latifah.  There is not much more I can write about this movie that has not already been said, I just know that watching it this morning impacted me greatly, enough to feel that I must share what I got out as a result of the movie, and how it’s beginning to heal me.  Quite frankly, when you read it at first blush, you will think what the heck does this have to do with the movie?  I will try my best to tie it all up in a neat package for you.  Sort of like a gift to my readers, as I believe that someone who needs to read this will, and perhaps it will make an impact on YOU, the way the movie impacted me.  It’s my biggest prayer for those of you that like me, still hold on to Love no matter what the circumstance.

So as I was watching the end of the Movie when Tae’s character is speaking on the phone to Sanaa’s character while she is at HOT 97’s Radio Station in New York, promoting her book that she wrote with his character in mind, a flood of emotions came over me, thinking of how much I have longed to have someone think about me, love me and find their way to me and tell me how much they have loved me for so long.  Then my conversation started with God, it has not been very often that I have had these conversations with God where I demand to know the whys and it gets a bit heated.  As I am growing in Christ, I am learning that it is okay to get angry, it’s okay to shout and it’s okay to ask Why?

Then it came to me

For the last 12 years I have held someone prisoner in my mind and therefore in my heart.  In doing so, I was held prisoner too!  Have you ever felt that you met someone and knew you just had to have them?  Where you ever so lucky, that your desire just corresponded with the alignment of the Universe and POW!!!  The next thing you know, you share your first kiss and then I will leave you to complete the rest.  I have to keep it PG folks as I know my sister’s head is about to fall off, (as she would probably say that I am sharing too much about myself) but I need to do this for me. 
This is my way of paroling him from my heart and my mind so that I can be free to love again. 

For the past 12 years, the longest movie has played in my mind, but sadly it met with a tragic ending.  No, no one died, just the intensity of what we had once shared.  Have you ever felt that you had the one that got away?  For the last 12 years I have felt that way, but I consoled myself by keeping my cherished moments to myself constantly replaying in my mind, the way he looked, the way he carried himself, the smell of his cologne and an intoxicating confidence that just gripped me from across the room the day we met and compelled me to declare that I must have him! 
Did I conquer?  Yes, for that brief moment in time, I did.  Little did I know that the residual effects from what seemed to be such a magical time would repeatedly conquer me and any future endeavors until today.  On Facebook today, one of the teacher’s of The Secret posted this message, I knew that once I read it, God answered me and validated all that I am sharing with you now.  
This is what Bob Proctor shared and may it bring you validation as I feel that the truths that we discover we must share as someone somewhere is needing validation as well.

“Unfortunately, the vast majority of people spend their days either living in the dead past
or
the imagined future.

This sort of mental activity cheats a person out of the most precious time we have ...

 NOW

 Give everything you have to what you are doing NOW and life will richly reward you.”

Reading this again, as I cut and paste it bring a great deal of Joy to me, I wish you can see me; I am having a true OPRAH moment for sure!  No truer words have been said to me, than the words that I am seeing now (other than the bible of course), but I believe that God uses us as instruments so that we may share our lives, our truths (as we see them) so that they may heal the wounds of many as well as our own.

Saying Good Bye,

As you walk through the long corridor of my mind, and the steel doors close behind you with a thunderous clang, I see your silhouette disappear before me, freeing you, freeing me, so that I may find Love again.  I want to thank you for the lessons that you have taught me as they have served me well, but your memory no longer serves me in the present.  I will love you always and forever with all of my heart, and I pray that someday this somehow comes your way so that you accept my apology for holding you prisoner for so long in my mind.

 I release you with All of my Love G.A.S.

God Bless!  

Okay,,, I am officially Single!!

Let the Loving Begin!

This is what Liberation looks like

J